Choose best answer
Jessi Fuller Fields
What do you avoid thinking about?
1) Flames flinging through home’s hallways
2) Male genitalia
3) The Incident(s)
4) All of the above
Justify your response
1) Fire frightens me. Something about martyrs and witches and bone-black hands clapping in death, something about paperthin mobile home walls and burgundy fabrics, something about Mama panic-darting around the house unplugging her coffee pot and Christmas lights and the windchimes by her bed for fear, something about a spark coming to life and destroying it all
2) I can’t think of the gutpunch of male genitalia much, how I want to feel the same looking at David as I do looking at Venus but I don’t today and didn’t before and could this all be comphet and why does it matter
3) I won’t consider the (s) of The Incident, how it went from one thing that happened once to one person to happening twice to two people, to happening more than anyone can remember or write about, how it happened to mother, grandmother, aunt, and sister, how it happened to more friends than I know and maybe to me
Jessi Fuller Fields is a Queer poet and writer based in Sao Paulo, Brazil. Her work deals with breaking silences and exploring generational traumas. Fields completed an MFA at Queens University of Charlotte in 2020. Her work has appeared in Typehouse Magazine, 8 Poems, and Issue 30 of QA. Follow her on Instagram @jessi.fullerfields and Twitter @jfullerfields
The devil came to me
And she was salt on your mouth
A blonde hair on your shoulder
She grinned from the corner
Of our marriage bed
And she was an old weary tomcat
Curled up on my lap
A month after adoption,
Euthanized in my arms
And she was a broken staircase
Wooden and painted with
Nails jutting out, she transformed
My knees with surgical stitches and scars.
And she was a leaky faucet
Sputtering putrid waters
She left a stain on the carpet
In the shape of Christ’s face.
Cheryl Aguirre is a queer biracial poet based in Austin, Texas. You can find their previously published work in Ghost City Press, decomp journal, and The Whorticulturalist. You can follow them at @drowsy_orchid on Instagram and @Wheat_Mistress on Twitter.